radiantbl0nde

08:45 am: Its been a while....

                

Hey well I haven't written in here in a really really long butt time. lol Well anyways....not really much has been going on I just have been going to school working, babysitting and hanging out with Drew. Its almost 6 months with us and everything still is great. OMG last night I watched the notebook. Wow that was an awesome movie. I totally cried like I have never cried before. Tonight I am gonna watch Garden State I heard that was a good movie so I am excited to see it too. I will probably be crying my eyes out tonight too. I have to work from 12-7! :( and tommarrow and tuesday. :( sucks I hate work but I am saving up a lot of money, I don't know what for but its nice to have that extra cash there! Valentines Day is monday!! yay!! First time I have ever had a boyfriend on Valentines day I am excited! well that's all for now more later if I get a chance.....

christa*

12:47 pm: Happy New Year!!

                                             

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! Well I haven't written in here in a while so I was bored and thought I should sit down and just write....its a nice place to just let it all out sometimes. Christmas was really great!! I got a new computer for my room and a bunch of stuff for my room I just moved into during the summer also I got the Dooney & Burke purse I have been driving my mom crazy for! From Drew I got a Tiffany & Co. bracelet!! Exciting right?! ooh also the car was part of my christmas presents! Which I love soo much and I am going to practice driving today!! :) Well lately I have been just hanging out trying to enjoy this time off which is so wonderful it should be longer! :( Yesterday I had a pretty good brand new years! Me and LeeAnn went to go get our nails done and it is right next to the publix I work at and I am supposed to be "out of town" right now I told them that so I could take the rest of this break off work and I saw one of my managers I was like CRAP! lol ooh well! Then at night my family and Vinny and Drew went to my aunts house and my 7 year old cousin was trying to steal my boyfriend! she told me he wasn't my boyfriend any more but he was hers! I was like alllrighty!! and she kept bringing him cookies and stuff it was pretty funny! Then all my uncles made Vinny and Drew play monopoly with them which turned into a very intense game lol!!! and then at midnight I had my first kiss of the year 2005!!!!!!!! Drew is the greatest guy a girl could ever find I can't even believe that a guy this great would love me back the way I love him! Love is a wonderful thing once you find it but its so scary because your afraid your gonna lose it!!!

christa*

02:15 pm: I GOT A CAR!!!!!!! :)

I GOT A CAR! yay!! its sooo cute! I am soo excited!! me and courtney have to share it but its ok cause its really cute!! I have to work from 4-10 :( and then tommarrow from 8-4 :( suck oh well I need to get my hair highlighted so I could use some extra ching in my chang!

christa*

my new car!! SOO FREAKING CUTE!!

02:33 pm: RYAN RYAN RYAN RYAN RYAN RYAN IS SO FINE!!

               

 

Hey everyone haven't written in a while! I was in New York for Thanksgiving! It was sooo completely awesome! I went to the Macy's Parade and Ryan Cabrera AND Gavin Degraw were in the parade soo it was soo cool! Gavin Degraw gave me the hottest smile and told me "Happy Thanksgiving!" and I was kinda dissapointed when Ryan's float came by cause he was looking the other way when he came by me. BUUTT then the greatest thing happened. After the parade we were walking back to our hotel and all of the sudden my little brother goes "hey, look who it is!" so I looked and it was none other than the hot Ryan Cabrera! So I like tried to compose myself and breathe and then when I gained my composure I went up to him and asked if he would take a pic with me and he was like sure of course! He was soooo freaking sweet and totally hot! So it was def. the Highlight of my trip! New York was fun I love to visit there its such a different atmosphere, my dream is to be a news reporter in New York and live there and stuff! Although I loved being there it was nice to come home too! I missed Drew a lot so it was great to see him again and stuff! Ugh I have to babysit today and Friday and then work Tommarrow...sucks! Oh well I need money right now cause christmas is right around the corner, I already started christmas shopping wow I am so good I know!

christa*

p.s the pic I took with ryan is my new icon so check it out I know its kinda small but oh well......if you wanna see it bigger email me and I will email it to you!

Sick and tired of this world
There's no more air
Tripping over myself, going nowhere
Waiting, suffocating, no direction
I took a dive and

On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
And on the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held on to you

Been wondering why it's only me
Have you always been inside waiting to breathe
It's alright, sunlight on my face
I wake up and yet, I'm alive 'cuz

On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
And on the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held on to you

I want to fade, I'm going under
But now, the weight of the world
Feels like nothing, nothing
(down, down, down)
You're all I wanted
(down, down, down)
You're all I needed
(down, down, down)
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed

And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted, all that I needed and now

On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
And on the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held on to you

10:39 am:

Hey everyone, today sucks! :-( I went to school and I didn't feel good at all so in first period I called my dad to come pick me up, so he came when I was in second period. My stomach hurts really really bad! I swear I catch everything! I have the worst immune system ever! So here I am stuck at home bored out of my mind with an upset stomach. Tommarrow is mine and Drew's 3 month aniversery! That is so cool! I am soo excited. We are prb. just gonna go out to dinner or something. But hopefully he can get off of work because they have him scheduled to work from 5-8. I am so exctied everyday is getting closer to Tues. when I leave for New York I am sooo happy!! I have saved up 300$ to go shopping! I can't believe I actually saved my money. I usually spend it as soon as I get it. And I do have to admit I have spent a lot prb. if I didn't spend any I would have a lot more! But oh well.......300$ is good enough for me! Well my tum tum hurts!! :( so later guys! Leave me a message and tell me if you like me or not!

christa*

Like a cat in heat stuck in a moving car
Scary conversations,
Shut my eyes, can't find the brake
What if they say that you're a cutter?

Naturally i'm worried if i do it alone
Who really cares cuz it's your life
You never know, it could be great
Take a chance cuz you might grow
Oh... oh ohhh

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock

Take a chance you stupid Ho

Like a new cut pattern, you're repeating yourself
You know it all by heart
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish

You know you're only known
Cuz of your sex chromosome
I know it's so messed up how our society all thinks (for sure)
Life is short, you're capable (uh huh)
Oh... oh ohhh

LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

I can't wait to go
Back into Japan
Get me lots of brand new fans
Osaka, Tokyo
You Harajuku girls 

 you've got some wicked style...

GO!
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho

Take a chance, you stupid ho
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho

03:56 pm: wishing I was somewhere else.......

                   

 

Hey hey! I had the boringest weekend ever I had to work for most of it. Oh well pretty soon I will be jobless, unless somewhere at the mall calls me. I applied at two more places Bakers and Icing. I would love to work at Bakers all of those SHOES! OMG I would go crazy i love shoes soo much!! Well Nothing much is going on except work driving me up the wall.

Oh I am leaving for New York in a week!! I am soo excited! I haven't been to New York since 9th grade. I absolutely LOVE it there its the greatest place ever!! I have saved up a lot of money so I can go shopping. But I most excited to see the Macy's Parade. I always see it on TV and to actually be there I think it will be an amazing experience. While all you Suckers are watching it on TV I will get the physical LIVE version! haha I am so excited I am jumping out of my panties!! Well that's all for now more later! BYE!

christa*

I think this song has a good lesson to it....you shouldn't wanna be anyone besides yourself!

 

 

 

08:54 pm:

                    

Hey everyone....haven't written in a little bit! I have been really busy with work and school and everything. Well I have decided that I really wanna quit my work! I really don't like it at all it is too physical for me I know I know I am a pansy! lol I am just too girlie girl for that kind of work! So tonight Drew took me to the mall and I applied at Limited Too, American Eagle, and Wet Seal! So hopefully I will hear something back! Cause I would love to work at any of those places! Just think of the discounts! I would be really really happy! SO please pray everyone that I get a call back from at least one of those places, prefreably limited too cause I think it would be so fun to help young girls find cute outfits!! Well not much else has been going on lately. Just busy but boring! This weekend is going to suck soo bad I have to babysit until 8 tommarrow night and then I have to work from 4-11 on saturday and from 5-10 on Sunday. So yeah my weekend is pretty much non existent! Which sucks extremely bad! :-( Oh well I am gonna quit soon anyways!!!!! LATER DUDES!!!!!!!!

christa*

leave a message it would make me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY!!!!!!!!!! :-) 

 

 

 

 

 

04:02 pm: What is this....?!

                                       

Well well I am back, I finally get a chance to sit down and rest. So I guess I will update this. Wow things have been extremely busy lately, running here running there. Well I will update you a little bit about what I have been up to but not much because I have some other things I wanna talk about because they have been on my mind. Well we had homecoming Saturday it was really fun, I got a black eye from Lee Ann accidently elbowing me in the eye while we were dancing but oh well....I don't really care anymore. I kinda cared on homecoming cause my eye was all swollen and I missed half of it sitting in the other room while Drew held an ice pack on my eye while my eyes were pouring out water, crying. lol whatever its getting better, still a little black/blue but its fine. Its easy to blend with makeup.

I have been thinking a lot lately about how people worry about stupid stuff that doesn't even matter. I just read an article in the newspaper about my boyfriend's close friend, Stephen who just found out a little over a month ago that he had Lukemia! It got me thinking about a lot. What really matters to me? I really don't know. Am I living the life I want to, I constantly think well I will have time to do what I really want another time and so here I am wasting my time over and over again. Worrying about what people think about me worrying about school worrying about everything that doesn't really matter. Knowing that Stephen has Lukemia shows me that I shouldn't think that I have all the time in the world. Anything can happen to anyone, you just never ever know. Today could be your last day, if you knew it was your last day would you live it the way you lived it? Would you have gotten in that arguement, would you have rolled your eyes at your mom when she told you she loved you instead of saying it back even when you knew you wanted to? Live today and don't wait for tommarrow it may never happen. I don't think anyone in the airplanes on 911 had any idea, or anyone in the towers had any idea about their fate for the day. It can happen anytime any place any reason. You just never know. Now go give your mom a hug, do some cart wheels and eat that entire carton of ice cream I know that's what you really wanna do!

christa*

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes,
This is your life.
And today is all you've got now.
And today is all you've ever have.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything that you dreamed
that it would be when the world was younger,
and you had everything to lose?

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?

 

05:32 pm: Everyone SAW my BLACK PANTIES!!!!!

                                                                             

Hey what a day!! Well I have an embaressing story that happened to me today! I went to the bathroom today before first period and well I was trying to hurry up and get to class because the two minute warning bell had just rung so I was going to be late if I didn't hurry. So I hurried up and did my business and well our sinks are out in the hallways so I went out in the hallway to wash my hands minding my own business and this girl comes up to me and was like "hey, you might want to fix your skirt..." So I look down and my FREAKING skirt was caught on my underwear revealing my black panties and all everything else!! So all those stupid mexican boys that were looking at me extra hard I now know why!!! LOL Its ok I kinda like when funny stuff like that happens to me it makes me laugh...I don't really care that much I am just glad that someone told me before I walked around to much longer with my rear end hanging out! lol Crap happens.....

I had my first day of "real" work yesterday at publix. It was ok, it will be better when Lee Ann and Drew work with me. Its pretty easy and I guess I did ok except when I gave one person someone else's bags!! lol whoops! I have to work again on Thursday I think Drew is gonna try and work for a little bit on Thursday too! Yay that would be awesome!

Omg I am getting so anxious homecoming dance is on Sat!! I am sooo excited! I can't wait to put on my dress I love it soo super duper much! I know this homecoming is going to be completley awesome because I am going with Drew!! I can't wait to dance I love to dance and I haven't been somewhere to dance since the begining of the summer when I went to the groove with brookie.  

alrighty everyone I prb. won't be able to write in here for a couple days...so later!

christa*

 

 

 

 

09:14 am: Sick!! :(
Hey guys I am just sitting at home cause I am sick! I hate feeling this way! Well this weekend I went up to Georgia to see my cousin and her husband and their new daughter because they have been in Japan for four years because her husband is in the military, now they are moving to Oklahoma but we thought we should go up there and see them before they move again. Well yesterday about the time we were going to leave my stomach started hurting really really bad!! OMG I can't even describe it!!! I had to ride in a car for 6 hours with my stomach feeling that way!! That is not the best way to spend 6 hours of your life stuck in a car with no where to go when you feel like you are about to puke out all your insides! Sorry for the visualation. Drew before he went to school this morning brought me a dragon fly balloon (cause he knows I LOVE dragonflies!!!) and also some Sprite to make me feel better and a card!! He is the sweetest guy ever I am soo lucky and I know it and I am not afraid to brag about it either!! lol
feeling kinda icky...
christa*